If there is anything I learned in 2008, it's that fixating and depending on one thing isn't healthy. Things don't always work out the way we want them to. Sometimes we lose something important. Sometimes we're wrong about when or why or how things are going to take place. To put all of your eggs in one basket is ridiculous, no matter how sure you feel about anything -- because even if you're wrong and everything you've ever known collapses around you, the world doesn't stop turning. It's best you prepare yourself for anything but assume that all or nothing is going to come of it.
You're sure this is going to happen. Ok, great. What if it doesn't? It will. But what if it doesn't? That isn't doubt in my mind. That's a valid and realistic question to ask someone who is absolutely sure of anything. What are we all suppose to do about things we don't have the ability to change? Do we hear about something horrible and stew in it? Do we just lay around and weep for something that isn't happening to us and probably never will? Or do we go out there and live the life not everybody gets to live? Do we mope about what's wrong or do we focus on what's right? Fixating on something doesn't make you smarter. It makes you weaker. We're suppose to pay attention, learn, and be strong. We aren't suppose to stare something in the face so long that it knocks us out.
I'm a person unique to anybody else. I know how much I can take. I'm so sick of people acting like it's one size fits all around here. I know I need to bend, but sometimes I feel like one more inch and I'll break. I don't understand what's wrong with being happy. I don't understand what is so wrong about having hope. I don't doubt my faith. I just don't pretend to know everything and I'm never going to bank on what I think I know. I don't live in my own land of prediction. I'm just trying to let go and let God.